WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:41.200 Music. 00:00:41.044 --> 00:00:44.044 On the air, or really just recording in my recording studio. 00:00:44.364 --> 00:00:48.224 For today's outfit, I decided to go back into wearing, I'm wearing this cute 00:00:48.224 --> 00:00:53.724 little business suit with silver, like a silver top on it. You could see it on my Facebook. 00:00:53.944 --> 00:00:56.284 You guys should be following me on Facebook because I talk about a lot of my 00:00:56.284 --> 00:00:58.644 interesting things there. 00:00:59.084 --> 00:01:02.104 In this new round of the podcast, I wanted to bring it back because I missed 00:01:02.104 --> 00:01:05.744 my creative outlets. But I also have a lot to say about what's happening in 00:01:05.744 --> 00:01:06.844 our country politically. 00:01:07.304 --> 00:01:10.824 So I want to talk about a really positive story, several positive of stories 00:01:10.824 --> 00:01:12.204 that I've had over the last few weeks. 00:01:12.284 --> 00:01:20.224 I got to participate in the David Douglas School District first ever queer plus affirming event. 00:01:20.584 --> 00:01:22.404 It was me and Quesa de Mondays. 00:01:22.804 --> 00:01:25.804 Quesa de Mondays is the host of Musical Mondays over at Badlands. 00:01:26.424 --> 00:01:30.204 And that event was fantastic and it was so good. And I have to tell you all 00:01:30.204 --> 00:01:33.924 right now that it changed my life. 00:01:34.104 --> 00:01:38.524 So I did a Drag Queen Story hour where we read a couple of books. And that was fantastic. 00:01:38.804 --> 00:01:41.284 So the books we read were one was about pride. 00:01:41.864 --> 00:01:45.884 And the other book was about Harvey Milk. The funny thing about the book about 00:01:45.884 --> 00:01:49.524 pride is it actually had like a guide for parents about how to talk about those 00:01:49.524 --> 00:01:50.504 subjects with their kids. 00:01:50.724 --> 00:01:53.624 And so I thought that was actually kind of cool. So like, you know, 00:01:53.704 --> 00:01:55.364 talk about painted ladies or whatever. 00:01:55.664 --> 00:01:59.264 And, you know, or talk about drag queens. And so talk about how you can talk 00:01:59.264 --> 00:02:03.184 about your talk to your kids about like drag queens. And so that was really amazing. 00:02:03.704 --> 00:02:07.184 And getting to be a part of that was just kind of otherworldly. 00:02:07.824 --> 00:02:12.144 At the end of the event, I went up to one of the organizers and the organizer 00:02:12.144 --> 00:02:13.384 was like, hey, can I tell you something? 00:02:13.664 --> 00:02:17.944 I said, sure. What is that? And she goes, well, one of the students came up 00:02:17.944 --> 00:02:23.644 to me and said, I really appreciate that you had a black drag queen because 00:02:23.644 --> 00:02:26.524 it made me feel more safe. 00:02:26.904 --> 00:02:29.364 And then I told the organizer, I was like, oh my gosh, thank you so much. 00:02:29.464 --> 00:02:32.204 I'm going to go cry now. I'm going to go cry. I'm going to go cry. 00:02:32.924 --> 00:02:35.884 I'm going to leave, I'm going to go cry now right in my car. 00:02:36.660 --> 00:02:40.520 And so that was really amazing. And then recently I was at, I wanted to go dancing. 00:02:41.060 --> 00:02:43.620 I've been having a lot of mental health struggles recently and I wanted to go 00:02:43.620 --> 00:02:45.740 dancing and I didn't know where I wanted to go. 00:02:45.860 --> 00:02:50.500 And so we ended up going to Blow Pony, which is a big queer party that happens 00:02:50.500 --> 00:02:51.960 in Portland on a monthly basis. 00:02:52.480 --> 00:02:58.800 And basically from there, me and Adam were dancing and I guess it was their 18 year party. 00:02:59.400 --> 00:03:03.600 And so Angelica had just, Angelica DeVille just finished doing a really fantastic number. 00:03:04.320 --> 00:03:09.560 And then Eric, the creator of Blow Pony, called me up on stage to say, 00:03:09.920 --> 00:03:12.360 to thank me for all the work that I've been doing in the community. 00:03:12.860 --> 00:03:17.420 The thing is, a lot of people know this about me, but they don't know this about me. 00:03:17.580 --> 00:03:21.780 I'm very vocal with my social platforms, but I do a lot of things offline to 00:03:21.780 --> 00:03:29.560 help get my message out there, to help myself do what I need to do to help boost up my community. 00:03:30.380 --> 00:03:33.380 As everybody knows, one of the most important things in the world to me is my marriage. 00:03:34.040 --> 00:03:37.400 And we know that marriage equality is probably going to be overturned. 00:03:37.680 --> 00:03:42.520 And that kind of sucks because so many people work so hard to make that a possibility 00:03:42.520 --> 00:03:44.240 and a reality for us queer people. 00:03:44.960 --> 00:03:46.780 And it hurts my heart. It. 00:03:49.425 --> 00:03:51.885 It's more than likely going to happen. But one thing that was super cool is 00:03:51.885 --> 00:03:56.185 I found out in the last election that my mom, she actually, so I always used 00:03:56.185 --> 00:03:58.445 to say that I was never going to get married until I could get married into 00:03:58.445 --> 00:03:59.485 the state to which I was born. 00:04:00.245 --> 00:04:04.085 And then it turns out that Colorado did put like basically marriage equality 00:04:04.085 --> 00:04:09.185 on the ballot, because I think they had an idea that it was going to be overturned. 00:04:09.285 --> 00:04:13.345 And I found out that my mom actually voted yes for marriage equality. 00:04:13.565 --> 00:04:15.145 And so that was like a really heartwarming moment. 00:04:16.205 --> 00:04:19.585 So there's a lot of things that I'm doing right now as I move and shake, 00:04:19.725 --> 00:04:22.305 but you guys should check out my social media platforms because that'll give 00:04:22.305 --> 00:04:25.405 you a little bit more of an indication about where I'm at and what I'm doing. 00:04:25.965 --> 00:04:29.505 I have a couple of episodes planned already moving forward. 00:04:29.725 --> 00:04:32.205 Some things are going to be some really difficult subjects. Some are going to 00:04:32.205 --> 00:04:36.245 be more fun and more interesting and things like that as we kind of navigate 00:04:36.245 --> 00:04:38.585 this new, you know, Trump presidency. 00:04:39.045 --> 00:04:42.525 Did y'all happen to catch all the data leaks that happened? So I know a lot 00:04:42.525 --> 00:04:45.465 of people actually in the queer community don't necessarily like to keep up 00:04:45.465 --> 00:04:47.105 to date on what's happening. 00:04:47.365 --> 00:04:51.645 But so basically what happened is there was like the FBI director and the head 00:04:51.645 --> 00:04:55.985 of like, you know, security, like intelligence committee or whatever. 00:04:56.265 --> 00:04:59.445 And J.D. Vance, the vice president of the United States, were all in a group chat. 00:04:59.605 --> 00:05:04.785 And then they accidentally, in a Signal group chat, and they accidentally included a reporter. 00:05:05.005 --> 00:05:09.385 And I don't even mean a reporter, an editor-in-chief of The Atlantic in the 00:05:09.385 --> 00:05:12.785 group chat. So I will tell my followers out there, I made this joke yesterday 00:05:12.785 --> 00:05:16.505 on the microphone, that, you know, Snapchat is used to, you know, 00:05:16.585 --> 00:05:18.585 like, you know, send news and like cheat on your spouse. 00:05:18.825 --> 00:05:22.325 And Signal is like used by activists, but more so it's just used to like buy 00:05:22.325 --> 00:05:23.505 cocaine from your drug dealer. 00:05:23.825 --> 00:05:29.065 And so it turns out that, you know, the higher up officials of our government 00:05:29.065 --> 00:05:33.205 were using Signal to basically commit war crimes. 00:05:33.385 --> 00:05:37.145 They actually kind of admitted to a war crime in the text message chain. 00:05:37.585 --> 00:05:40.505 And the funny thing about this is I will give J.D. Vance this credit, 00:05:40.545 --> 00:05:44.045 but then when I reread what J.D. Vance actually said in the group chat... 00:05:45.095 --> 00:05:48.795 It actually kind of bothered me later because, so this is what he said, 00:05:49.055 --> 00:05:53.455 team, I am out for the day doing an economic event in Michigan, 00:05:53.455 --> 00:05:57.515 but I think we are making a mistake talking about the plan that they were going 00:05:57.515 --> 00:06:00.275 to take to bomb this building. 00:06:00.575 --> 00:06:06.715 3% of US trade runs through the Suisse, 40% of European trade does. 00:06:06.935 --> 00:06:12.615 There is a real risk that the public doesn't understand this or why it's necessary. And what J.D. 00:06:12.635 --> 00:06:16.915 Means by that is like, if we make this action, the public may not understand. 00:06:17.395 --> 00:06:22.455 Then he goes, the strongest reason to do this is, as POTUS said, to send a message. 00:06:22.635 --> 00:06:28.695 But I am not sure the president is aware how inconsistent this is with his message on Europe right now. 00:06:29.235 --> 00:06:33.555 There's a further risk that we will see a moderate to severe spike in oil prices. 00:06:33.895 --> 00:06:38.415 I am willing to support the consensus of the team and keep these concerns to 00:06:38.415 --> 00:06:42.235 myself. But there is a strong argument for delaying this a month, 00:06:42.455 --> 00:06:48.375 doing the messaging work on why this matters, seeing where the economy is, etc. 00:06:51.655 --> 00:06:55.795 So this is what Pete Hegseth says to the Vice President. 00:06:56.035 --> 00:07:00.435 I understand your concerns and fully support you raising this with POTUS, 00:07:00.715 --> 00:07:05.355 important considerations, most of which are tough to know how they play out. 00:07:05.475 --> 00:07:10.555 The economy, Ukraine, peace, Gaza, etc. I think messaging is going to be tough no matter what. 00:07:10.835 --> 00:07:19.835 Nobody knows who the Houthis are, which is why we would need to stay focused on Biden. 00:07:21.995 --> 00:07:24.075 Stay focused on why Biden failed. 00:07:24.967 --> 00:07:30.747 And two, Iran-funded. So meaning that to the American people. 00:07:31.587 --> 00:07:37.207 He needs to have the message that to sell it to us, we need to focus on Biden failed. 00:07:37.327 --> 00:07:40.167 That's why we had to do this. Or it was Iran-funded. 00:07:40.767 --> 00:07:45.247 Basically saying that the American people are stupid is pretty much what they're 00:07:45.247 --> 00:07:47.107 saying, that they're going to have to trick us. 00:07:47.327 --> 00:07:50.487 And then he says, waiting a few weeks or a month does not fundamentally change 00:07:50.487 --> 00:07:55.287 the calculus to immediate risks on waiting. this leaks and we will look indecisive. 00:07:55.387 --> 00:08:00.787 Israel takes an action first or Gaza's ceasefire falls apart and we don't get 00:08:00.787 --> 00:08:03.427 to start this on our own terms. We can manage both. 00:08:03.827 --> 00:08:09.267 We are prepared to execute and if I had final go or no-go vote, I believe we should. 00:08:10.047 --> 00:08:15.347 And then the vice president said, if you think we should do it, let's go. 00:08:15.487 --> 00:08:18.087 I just hate bailing Europe out again. 00:08:18.827 --> 00:08:22.287 Let's just make sure our messaging is tight here. And if there are things we 00:08:22.287 --> 00:08:26.607 can do up front to minimize risk to Saudi oil facilities, we should do it. 00:08:26.967 --> 00:08:30.607 Meaning like they trying to blame Europe in this capacity. It was a whole mess. 00:08:30.827 --> 00:08:35.427 These text leaks look worse than somebody in high school. Like they look absolutely 00:08:35.427 --> 00:08:36.627 atrocious across the board. 00:08:37.067 --> 00:08:42.087 And it's really embarrassing that like all of these people, like the head of 00:08:42.087 --> 00:08:47.047 security and the FBI director and everything like that, is just making all of 00:08:47.047 --> 00:08:48.467 these really horrific choices. 00:08:48.707 --> 00:08:52.227 And then they included a reporter, sorry, an editor-in-chief in there. 00:08:52.327 --> 00:08:53.707 And here's the problem that kills me. 00:08:54.247 --> 00:08:55.687 To get somebody added to a group 00:08:55.687 --> 00:08:59.387 chat in Signal, there's like several layers of things you have to do. 00:08:59.527 --> 00:09:03.547 It also announces the person when you add them to the group chat. 00:09:03.687 --> 00:09:06.587 Like you have to go to your contacts saying, yes, I want to be added to this. 00:09:06.687 --> 00:09:09.707 You have to name your group chats to create them in Signal. 00:09:10.087 --> 00:09:13.487 And then you also then like, then you have to go through your contacts, 00:09:13.687 --> 00:09:16.867 pick the contact, click to add. Like there's like all these things you can't 00:09:16.867 --> 00:09:18.067 just accidentally get added. 00:09:18.207 --> 00:09:22.067 You can't hack into it in any capacity. That's just not how this works. 00:09:23.067 --> 00:09:29.687 And then Pete Hegsess said, VP, I fully share your loathing of European freeloading. It's pathetic. 00:09:31.967 --> 00:09:36.327 So we look real stupid to the country, right? Sorry, real stupid to the world stage right now. 00:09:36.707 --> 00:09:39.947 And most people are really terrified about what the U.S. is going to do. 00:09:40.187 --> 00:09:44.227 Like we're having, we're already in a trade war with a lot of different countries, 00:09:44.467 --> 00:09:46.327 like because of the tariff situation. 00:09:46.687 --> 00:09:51.227 And literally, Canada was literally pleading with the president to say, 00:09:51.367 --> 00:09:54.207 please don't do this or else we were going to have to retaliate. 00:09:54.647 --> 00:09:58.147 We're heading for a world war. It's just going to happen. 00:09:58.687 --> 00:10:03.707 I'm also noticing that the more I talk about politics, the more my messaging 00:10:03.707 --> 00:10:06.687 and the more my posts get suppressed. 00:10:07.007 --> 00:10:10.947 I've noticed that TikTok, I have to force TikTok to show me things. 00:10:11.087 --> 00:10:14.287 I have to follow Jasmine Crockett almost every single other week. 00:10:14.707 --> 00:10:18.327 Anytime a message gets too political out there, they don't show it to me. 00:10:18.407 --> 00:10:21.467 My algorithm is all messed up ever since the 24-hour Twitter blackout, 00:10:21.567 --> 00:10:22.747 sorry, the TikTok blackout. 00:10:23.147 --> 00:10:25.727 And it's just getting worse and worse and worse and worse and worse. 00:10:26.167 --> 00:10:30.587 But that's actually why I decided to do an event that I'd love to tell you all about. 00:10:31.147 --> 00:10:35.707 So we have some new sweethearts because I'm part of the Sweethearts of Portland. 00:10:36.697 --> 00:10:43.017 And so we have Miss Sweetheart 36, I believe, Khadijah Diamond. 00:10:44.077 --> 00:10:51.817 Oh, sorry. Miss Sweetheart 37, Khadijah Diamond. And Mick Sweetheart 37, Bambi Beats It. 00:10:52.397 --> 00:10:56.917 And so I'm including all past sweethearts. 00:10:57.157 --> 00:11:00.397 Well, not all, but a good majority of them. And we're doing an empowerment event. 00:11:00.577 --> 00:11:04.437 And pretty much it's what it's called. The event's called We Won't Back Down. 00:11:04.437 --> 00:11:06.777 It's Sunday, April 6th at Misfits. 00:11:07.017 --> 00:11:12.137 Basically, what this show is about is we're raising money for the ACLU. So it's a 50-50 split. 00:11:12.437 --> 00:11:16.277 50% goes to performers. 50% goes to ACLU. Because, you know, 00:11:16.397 --> 00:11:21.937 as more of our people end up in situations that are hard or the marriage equality 00:11:21.937 --> 00:11:25.197 stuff, we're going to need people fighting back for us on a federal level. 00:11:25.397 --> 00:11:27.997 And so that's why I included Plast Sweethearts in this. 00:11:28.837 --> 00:11:31.357 But before I get into anything else, I wanted to ask you all, 00:11:31.577 --> 00:11:33.097 how are you doing this evening? 00:11:36.357 --> 00:11:39.577 Tune in fabulous listeners we've got a sizzling announcement 00:11:39.577 --> 00:11:43.237 for all you drag aficionados and karaoke connoisseurs join 00:11:43.237 --> 00:11:46.117 us every wednesday at 8 30 p.m for an unforgettable night 00:11:46.117 --> 00:11:49.437 of glamour and entertainment at misfits bar and lounge located 00:11:49.437 --> 00:11:55.197 at 2530 northeast 82nd avenue in portland hosted by the mesmerizing autumn rains 00:11:55.197 --> 00:11:58.857 and captivating coco gem holiday this drag queen karaoke show will have you 00:11:58.857 --> 00:12:02.537 singing dancing and living your best life let loose and showcase your vocal 00:12:02.537 --> 00:12:06.617 prowess alongside these extraordinary queens as they create an atmosphere bursting 00:12:06.617 --> 00:12:08.837 with energy, laughter, and pure fabulousness. 00:12:09.177 --> 00:12:12.377 Mark your calendars and gather your squad for a Wednesday night that promises 00:12:12.377 --> 00:12:13.757 to be nothing short of spectacular. 00:12:14.077 --> 00:12:17.277 Whether you're a seasoned performer or a first-time diva, Misfits Bar and Lounge 00:12:17.277 --> 00:12:19.797 is a place to be for an unforgettable evening of entertainment, 00:12:20.197 --> 00:12:21.477 empowerment, and endless fun. 00:12:21.857 --> 00:12:26.717 Don't miss out on the fabulous extravaganza. Join us this Wednesday at 8.30pm 00:12:26.717 --> 00:12:31.857 and let your inner star shine at Misfits Bar and Lounge, Portland's newest queer plus sport. 00:12:31.760 --> 00:12:49.360 Music. 00:12:50.110 --> 00:12:55.270 It's a podcast. Tune into What They Tell You podcast. 00:12:56.130 --> 00:13:01.870 Welcome back, listeners. So I wrote this status on Facebook yesterday, 00:13:02.150 --> 00:13:07.630 talking about how, I said, why do people keep conflating conventionally pretty with talented? 00:13:08.270 --> 00:13:12.510 And the reason I said this is because there are, I had a conversation with a 00:13:12.510 --> 00:13:15.610 friend once who, I was like, we were like watching a performance together. 00:13:15.850 --> 00:13:18.530 And they're like, oh my God, they're so talented. And I said, 00:13:18.650 --> 00:13:21.970 she didn't do anything. They're like, but she's gorgeous. 00:13:22.010 --> 00:13:24.450 And I was like, yeah, but she didn't do anything. 00:13:25.090 --> 00:13:30.150 And I was like, wow, people really do conflate pretty with talented. 00:13:30.330 --> 00:13:33.650 And a friend of mine actually went on the side of saying that they think that 00:13:33.650 --> 00:13:37.510 they're like, but being pretty is talent. And I'm like, no, because anybody can be pretty. 00:13:38.270 --> 00:13:41.490 Anyone can be pretty. It does not make it a talent. To me, it doesn't. 00:13:41.770 --> 00:13:47.350 The more gorgeous you are in drag does not mean the more talented you are in drag, at least to me. 00:13:47.750 --> 00:13:50.210 And it's funny. So the reason I was talking about this is because, 00:13:50.390 --> 00:13:55.270 so I went out later that evening and so many drag queens that I ran into that 00:13:55.270 --> 00:13:59.050 night kept saying something to the effect of, but, but Coco, 00:13:59.250 --> 00:14:01.210 like, so you're thinking, so you think I'm pretty? 00:14:01.650 --> 00:14:05.310 And nobody said, not one person said, so you think I'm talented? 00:14:06.150 --> 00:14:11.770 It was crazy. I was like, I was like, wow, do we really all just want to be pretty? 00:14:11.890 --> 00:14:14.410 I mean, like, I want to be pretty, but I was always pretty. 00:14:15.370 --> 00:14:20.410 So the thing about drag is too, I just, I've gotten to the point to where I'm 00:14:20.410 --> 00:14:21.790 comfortable with the way that I look. 00:14:22.110 --> 00:14:25.110 I still like to wear my black hairstyles. I know we haven't done an update on 00:14:25.110 --> 00:14:27.610 me and drag in a long time, but that's just like kind of where I sit. 00:14:27.710 --> 00:14:29.630 That's where I like to operate. That's like how I like to be. 00:14:30.530 --> 00:14:34.390 And like my experiences have changed since I've lost some weight and it's weird 00:14:34.390 --> 00:14:35.750 how people interact with me now. 00:14:35.950 --> 00:14:39.510 And it's weird how people like, yeah, it's really just weird how people interact 00:14:39.510 --> 00:14:42.750 with me now. A couple of the other stories that I have for drag is, 00:14:43.210 --> 00:14:48.130 well, I've had to update. So we've lost a bunch of shows and we've kept some shows. 00:14:48.630 --> 00:14:51.950 And one of the shows that we did, Lou's... 00:14:52.811 --> 00:14:57.111 We did lose Drag Race over at Scandals, and Angelica DeVille is doing it. 00:14:57.271 --> 00:15:00.751 But we did gain Drag Race over at Misfits every Friday. 00:15:01.171 --> 00:15:03.931 So you guys should come up for that. It's funny, when I was telling people about 00:15:03.931 --> 00:15:06.311 that story, because I was like, well, yeah, we got fired. 00:15:06.951 --> 00:15:08.731 And they're like, what? And I was like, yeah. 00:15:10.271 --> 00:15:14.171 And they're like, why? And I was like, I don't know. But it was cool that Misfits 00:15:14.171 --> 00:15:15.351 kind of picked us up last second. 00:15:16.331 --> 00:15:19.411 As I've gotten more into stand-up comedy, if you check out my Facebook, 00:15:19.571 --> 00:15:21.231 you'll notice some of the things I've been doing with stand-up comedy. 00:15:21.231 --> 00:15:23.791 I've been really liking that community a lot more. 00:15:23.951 --> 00:15:27.911 I feel like the stand-up community is like kinder than the drag scene. 00:15:28.311 --> 00:15:32.031 Like the drag scene feels like we're always trying to attack each other. 00:15:33.351 --> 00:15:37.391 But the comedy scene, like even if they have their dramas, they're not as bad 00:15:37.391 --> 00:15:39.411 as it seems like the drag stuff is. 00:15:39.811 --> 00:15:43.011 Also recently, I've been trying to get into some new spaces. 00:15:43.451 --> 00:15:46.851 I kind of miss being in straight spaces again because I do Badlands. 00:15:47.011 --> 00:15:51.291 So me and Autumn have been at Badlands since they opened, doing trivia every Thursday night. 00:15:51.751 --> 00:15:54.531 And trivia has been a really great and amazing experience for me in autumn. 00:15:54.651 --> 00:15:57.871 It's also been good income. And we like being part of the Badlands team. 00:15:58.331 --> 00:16:02.671 But I will say the one thing that really sucks about trivia is that it's not performance. 00:16:02.971 --> 00:16:06.251 I've actually felt like I've gotten a lot more rustier at my performances because 00:16:06.251 --> 00:16:08.151 I'm not necessarily performing as often. 00:16:08.511 --> 00:16:11.211 And that kind of sucked. So the one thing that I would say to people is like, 00:16:11.331 --> 00:16:13.831 if you do want to go in, because a lot of people are like, how do you make money with drag? 00:16:13.951 --> 00:16:18.051 And it's like, well, it's like bingos, trivias, karaoke's, and drag shows. 00:16:18.051 --> 00:16:20.711 But mostly my money comes from bingos and trivias. 00:16:21.091 --> 00:16:27.111 Like we still work at the knockback every single, sorry, every first and third something Wednesday. 00:16:27.551 --> 00:16:29.311 We have karaoke every single Wednesday. 00:16:30.351 --> 00:16:33.631 You know, what's actually kind of interesting about this whole dynamic too is, 00:16:33.971 --> 00:16:38.391 so I lost another friend recently, not for death or anything like that, 00:16:38.471 --> 00:16:43.871 but I lost one of my friends who helped me out with a lot of my shows. 00:16:44.371 --> 00:16:47.131 And the one thing that I realized from that And it's like some people really, 00:16:47.331 --> 00:16:48.391 really, really, really, really. 00:16:49.787 --> 00:16:53.727 The reason that I usually use my friends to back up my shows is because you 00:16:53.727 --> 00:16:56.507 want somebody to like be safe and respectful with your brand. 00:16:56.787 --> 00:16:59.047 Right. And so that's what was happening with my shows. 00:16:59.627 --> 00:17:04.307 And what I'm recognizing with that is when you lose the friend, 00:17:04.407 --> 00:17:05.747 then you also lose a business partner. 00:17:05.967 --> 00:17:09.107 And both friends seem to hurt because it's somebody that you can trust. 00:17:09.367 --> 00:17:11.887 You don't usually just throw somebody at the wall at your stuff. 00:17:12.067 --> 00:17:14.047 You usually throw somebody that you can be confident in. 00:17:15.147 --> 00:17:19.107 So there is that. I did lose my show at Underbar for low attendance, 00:17:19.127 --> 00:17:22.987 but I will say I do feel like I was set up for failure at Underbar in a lot 00:17:22.987 --> 00:17:23.847 of different capacities. 00:17:24.287 --> 00:17:29.327 And Camilla tried her best to help wade those waters, but some of the things 00:17:29.327 --> 00:17:31.807 that happened there left a really bad taste in my mouth. 00:17:32.507 --> 00:17:35.687 And I'm not saying there's anything wrong with the bar or management, 00:17:35.687 --> 00:17:40.727 but I do really feel like the relationships that I build with people in those 00:17:40.727 --> 00:17:44.667 establishments matter and the changes that we make matter, right? 00:17:44.867 --> 00:17:49.727 And so just some things that happened, especially with my first couple months for just oof. 00:17:50.267 --> 00:17:55.347 So there was another show we did lose. I can't remember what it is. 00:17:55.707 --> 00:18:00.667 It'll come back to me. So some of the tea that I wanted to give away too is 00:18:00.667 --> 00:18:03.967 I'm going to be working on some projects for Juneteenth starting up. 00:18:04.087 --> 00:18:06.447 And I'm really excited about what those are going to look like. 00:18:06.567 --> 00:18:09.887 I can't give all the details away now, but you're going to start seeing some 00:18:09.887 --> 00:18:11.987 stuff, like being pushed out. 00:18:12.167 --> 00:18:15.267 And I'm really excited for what this is going to mean for the Black community as a whole. 00:18:16.387 --> 00:18:18.867 I really want to get the stand-up community involved in that as well. 00:18:19.367 --> 00:18:24.127 Also, later this month, we're going to be going to the Sailor Moon Live show, 00:18:24.127 --> 00:18:28.387 which I'm so excited about in a way that just I can't even explain. 00:18:28.847 --> 00:18:32.107 Like, it's going to just, I just can't wait for it. I love Sailor Moon so much. 00:18:33.587 --> 00:18:37.247 It's true. I just, I love the crap out of Sailor Moon. Oh, also, 00:18:37.647 --> 00:18:41.067 so a lot of people know this, that I do have a day job. I work in banking. 00:18:42.087 --> 00:18:46.467 And I have gone through, I've had some ups and downs with work that I can't 00:18:46.467 --> 00:18:50.407 even express. And it has made my drag life so much more difficult. 00:18:51.607 --> 00:18:59.327 The year I worked at Local Lounge, I got audited for and I lost because I was 00:18:59.327 --> 00:19:03.067 trying to explain to the government that the income that Local was making didn't belong to me. 00:19:03.367 --> 00:19:06.127 Like it didn't even go into my bank account. I was able to show them that, 00:19:07.152 --> 00:19:12.052 But so they were like, they're like, well, then you owe us all this money. 00:19:12.152 --> 00:19:13.812 I was like, but I didn't make that money. 00:19:13.932 --> 00:19:18.112 They're like, well, that account, that Eventbrite account was yours. 00:19:18.392 --> 00:19:21.552 I was like, yes. I was like, but it wasn't going into my bank account. 00:19:21.772 --> 00:19:25.232 They're like, well, we're holding you accountable to the amounts that were in Eventbrite. 00:19:25.492 --> 00:19:27.452 So I want to caution everybody out there. 00:19:27.812 --> 00:19:31.192 If you are helping somebody with an Eventbrite account, like make sure that 00:19:31.192 --> 00:19:34.552 you got your name off of that stuff. If it's some event that you're not making money for. 00:19:35.152 --> 00:19:39.112 Oh, goodness. So also we celebrated Autumn's birthday last weekend. 00:19:39.352 --> 00:19:43.032 We went to the coast and it was insane. 00:19:43.452 --> 00:19:47.112 We were partying pretty much the entire weekend for almost like 24 hours. 00:19:47.312 --> 00:19:52.952 It was just crazy, crazy. It's crazy to think that Autumn is 29 years old. 00:19:53.332 --> 00:19:56.632 Like she's in her last year of her 30s. She's almost near the gay death age. 00:19:56.852 --> 00:20:00.592 And Lord knows I thought she was going to like, you know, kick the bucket, 00:20:00.852 --> 00:20:04.592 you know, Last year she was going to join the 27 Club, but she ain't famous 00:20:04.592 --> 00:20:07.412 enough, which is the joke I tend to make on the microphone. 00:20:08.092 --> 00:20:10.212 Another one of the instances I want to talk about with you guys. 00:20:10.392 --> 00:20:15.912 So you all remember in the news where a bar defends kicking out MAGA woman. 00:20:16.492 --> 00:20:20.012 So there was this thing called the Chatterbox. I think it's actually in Indiana. 00:20:20.012 --> 00:20:21.112 I'm not quite sure where it's at. 00:20:21.352 --> 00:20:25.812 And there was a person wearing MAGA gear going into a bar. 00:20:26.412 --> 00:20:29.992 And the video basically shows, the video on TukTuk basically shows the bar, 00:20:30.072 --> 00:20:32.792 I think it's a bar owner, that says get out of my bar like you know 00:20:32.792 --> 00:20:35.952 you don't need to be in here and this bar you can tell looks like the diviest 00:20:35.952 --> 00:20:40.252 place i've ever seen in my life and so they're like so just to be clear you're 00:20:40.252 --> 00:20:43.272 kicking me out because i'm wearing maga and the bar's like yeah and they're 00:20:43.272 --> 00:20:46.032 like so you're discriminating against me and then the whole bar just started 00:20:46.032 --> 00:20:50.832 erupting in laughter because like why would you go to a gay bar wearing maga 00:20:50.832 --> 00:20:54.892 stuff and so i know that this also so the sacramento badlands. 00:20:55.532 --> 00:21:00.512 And I'm not sure if the owner of ours here in Portland has the same policy. 00:21:00.512 --> 00:21:03.212 And I don't necessarily want to have to find out. Portland is pretty queer. 00:21:03.452 --> 00:21:06.492 But they kicked out somebody for wearing MAGA stuff as well. 00:21:06.612 --> 00:21:09.472 Because when you think about what's happening with what's going on in our country, 00:21:09.672 --> 00:21:15.132 it really does suck to make MAGA feel safe in spaces that are where we can. 00:21:15.292 --> 00:21:18.152 There's still places I can't go where I can hold my husband's hand. 00:21:18.492 --> 00:21:21.792 Like there are places I don't feel because like I look pretty trans in drag. 00:21:22.232 --> 00:21:25.172 And like, and I know that people are like, that's problematic to you look a 00:21:25.172 --> 00:21:28.932 specific way, but it's true, like, you know, black trans women are still considered, 00:21:29.112 --> 00:21:32.352 are still being murdered at a really disproportionate rate. 00:21:32.592 --> 00:21:36.712 You know, it being a black trans person is a, it's not a death sentence, 00:21:36.852 --> 00:21:38.652 but it definitely does make life a little bit more dangerous. 00:21:38.892 --> 00:21:42.012 And so having those places be safe for you. 00:21:43.054 --> 00:21:47.674 Are important. And people walking in wearing MAGA, all I see when I see that 00:21:47.674 --> 00:21:51.494 stupid red hat is, I don't want your happiness, I don't want your life, 00:21:51.634 --> 00:21:53.874 and I don't want your existence and my privilege. 00:21:55.694 --> 00:22:02.814 I said this online too, that I think the white cishet community just is so starved 00:22:02.814 --> 00:22:05.074 for wanting to know what it's like to be part of community. 00:22:05.274 --> 00:22:09.434 Because you know when you have a label, you're automatically joined to a community. 00:22:09.614 --> 00:22:11.854 So being a drag queen, I'm joined to the drag community. 00:22:12.194 --> 00:22:14.734 Being a Black person, I'm part of the Black community. Like, 00:22:14.794 --> 00:22:17.394 being a queer person, I'm part of the, you know, queer community. 00:22:18.034 --> 00:22:22.614 Like, you know, and then being by gender, I'm under the trans asterisk community, 00:22:22.934 --> 00:22:27.034 right? I have all of these labels and identifiers that make me who I am. 00:22:27.334 --> 00:22:30.834 And I feel like, I honestly do feel like they're just jealous that they don't 00:22:30.834 --> 00:22:32.714 know what that true community feels like. 00:22:33.114 --> 00:22:35.974 Like, because, you know, we call each other family. We stick up for each other. 00:22:36.034 --> 00:22:36.834 We show up for each other. 00:22:36.914 --> 00:22:41.334 We march for each other, right? And I just feel like they're so starved for that oppression. 00:22:42.034 --> 00:22:45.434 Like I used to make this joke online that just because you're trans does not 00:22:45.434 --> 00:22:49.854 make you a person of color because it almost seemed like white trans folks were 00:22:49.854 --> 00:22:54.094 just starved to be a part of a racial minority because, you know, 00:22:54.174 --> 00:22:55.394 we really lift each other up. 00:22:55.494 --> 00:22:58.154 Like, you know, like there's that thing now you're like, oh, I love black people. 00:22:58.394 --> 00:23:01.034 Sorry. I love my people when you're black. I love it. Cause like when you see 00:23:01.034 --> 00:23:02.914 like an event on TikTok or something like that. 00:23:03.214 --> 00:23:07.894 And I just think it's really disgusting how, cause I really do think it's jealousy, you guys. 00:23:08.074 --> 00:23:13.234 Like, I think it's jealousy that they just want, they want to be part of community so bad. 00:23:13.374 --> 00:23:16.914 And it's like, allies belong in a lot of different communities. 00:23:17.054 --> 00:23:20.174 You'll never be a part of that community, but they belong in those communities. 00:23:20.514 --> 00:23:26.194 And so I just, I guess what I want to leave it, what I want to end is with this. 00:23:26.674 --> 00:23:29.914 I know we used to talk and joke about the fact that safe spaces seemed a little 00:23:29.914 --> 00:23:32.714 ridiculous, but now I think they're more important than ever. 00:23:32.894 --> 00:23:35.834 Every time we turn around and every time we blink, there is something happening 00:23:35.834 --> 00:23:37.354 in our country that is scary. 00:23:37.774 --> 00:23:41.594 So just keep that on the up. Just keep looking forward, listeners. 00:23:42.574 --> 00:23:47.134 We're going to make it through this. And hopefully, hopefully that thing that 00:23:47.134 --> 00:23:49.534 we all think is going to happen, happens sooner rather than later. 00:23:50.194 --> 00:23:54.614 So with that, keep your heads up. I love you all. Bye-bye. 00:23:57.434 --> 00:24:01.514 Hi, everybody. This has been another episode of A Gem of a Secret Podcast. 00:24:01.514 --> 00:24:05.614 The host of A Gem of a Secret Podcast is Coco Jem Holiday. 00:24:06.054 --> 00:24:09.594 Our music was provided by Touche Duche and Party Favors. 00:24:09.834 --> 00:24:14.454 You can follow them on Instagram at touche likes beef and Party Favors music. 00:24:14.854 --> 00:24:23.014 Please follow us online at www.ajemofasecretpodcast.com. That is a J-E-M of 00:24:23.014 --> 00:24:28.334 a secret podcast.com or anywhere you listen to podcasts. Our episodes are released weekly. 00:24:28.560 --> 00:24:50.485 Music.