So, I have some good and bad news.
Towards the end of last year my depression was getting the best of me. I've changed so many different aspects of my life to fit into what I needed to do to be healthy. It was getting quite overwhelming. So I broke and I looked into weight loss surgery. I've met a few people who actively stated they've got the surgery and those people that I know got the surgery but don't publicly admit to it.
Grand Junction has an awesome weight loss surgery program (from what I've seen) and they handle you with care. Over the last few years I've lost 80 pounds. However, I gained 15 pounds of that weight back and that was really hard for me, to the point to where I just wanted to throw my arms up in the air and call it done.
So I went to the first seminar that is required if you'd like to do weight loss surgery and there was a lot of really good information. Though, at the end of it, I decided that was not the route for me. I hate the gym, but I honestly don't mind going, and the thing about my relationship with food is I don't want to breakup with my diet. With certain surgeries, I'd lost the ability to fall off the band wagon. To be honest, I like having the ability to eat whatever I want when I choose without getting sick. Life is about the opportunities we get and every once in a while we get to fall off the band wagon and that's OK. I like knowing I can go to Fly'n Roosters and could go eat all you can wings. I like knowing I can go to burger king and order the left side of the menu.
I recently weighed myself and I am ten pounds away from my first SMART goal. Sure, it's slow, and steady, but this is my path. It's long, hard, and has a lot of downs. That's OK. I've learned that life wasn't meant to be full of shortcuts for everything we want. Sometimes we have to work hard to meet the goals we really want in life. I'm not saying that everyone should get surgery, I'm also not saying everyone should diet and exercise. All of our bodies are different and that 2% of us that actually keep the weight off knows that it's hard and will forever be a battle.
I'm going to be one of those 2%, and nothing is going to stop me.